![]() My ceiling has a crack. Yes, it has a long but thin crack that runs from one end straight to the other. I noticed it when I laid there in bed for hours unable to sleep. My anxiety and anxiousness overtook my ability to sleep that night. I did not want to go back "there." "There" . . . that place where I endured pain and suffering for months on end. The place where he touched me, where he broke me down, and almost won. I did not want to ever step foot in "our" house that rapidly became hell on Earth. It felt impossible. Perhaps you have a place in your mind that only brings ill-feelings, or frankly, tears of pain. The place makes you cringe, and uneasy. It brings back either the worst of memories or perhaps even the best of memories that now bring pain. My anxiety heightened every moment it got close to visiting, and I was expecting it to bring tears the entire time, but it didn't. After a few deep breathes I opened the white door to the house that brought me pain and stepped in. I thought revisiting would make me move backwards in my healing, but it actually helped move forward. It showed me that my decision of leaving and moving on was the very best decision for my daughter and I. It confirmed that I am exactly where I need to be, and allowed me to stitch up another hole in my heart. It has given me a step forward in my healing process. Consider revisiting "that" place. You know, that place that brings you such uneasy feeling that you can not eat or sleep well. Go there, even with a friend or accountability partner. Take a few deep breathes, close your eyes, and allow God to release that place from you. Read the words of David in Psalm 23 aloud: The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows... Allow him to take yet another thing that will bring you one step closer in the healing process. You deserve complete healing, and He is waiting to give it to you. |
AuthorMelissa Brown is a strong momma who lives in Wapakoneta, Ohio. She enjoys spending time with her daughter, Zoey, and taking long naps. Posts
May 2024
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